on a HIGH

salaam all, its been a while, i know but hey its been a roller coster of emotions since the last time, i've so far dealt with sleepnes nights, a screaming coliky baby, extreme fatigue, and lastly panik when going out, in case baby cries for milk...


but its been strange, that i have been adapting to life with a newborn again, its weird pushing a pushchair or singing the CRAPPEST made up lullaby to get him to sleep, something he doesn't do much of!, but i wouldn't change it for the world, he ALMOST  wasn't here, and for that i'll always feel terrible guilt, but i put my faith in Allah, i'm glad i did.....friends have been wonderful, really caring, i feel very blessed to have such kind people around me.....loves ya'll keep posted